There are times--days
weeks, months--long stretches
of seconds, kind of like
getting goosebumps
and settling
and tensing up all over again.

these times i feel alone
and ignored
and unhappy

and i think they would
be better if you'd
notice me, if i could
bring myself to do it,
to not be the one giving advice,
to be the one asking for it,
and is that the only way
you'll notice me, if I
ask for it?, and
is that the only thing
I can do?, and
have I fallen in love
with you?, and
was it a mistake?, and how
can I
fall out?